The only thing we have to fear...is the unknown.
Now is probably not the best time to post because I am feeling very down.
After I high point last week I have been seeing a gradual decline in Gretchen. It isn't much, she's just a little harder to wake each day and her voice is a bit weaker. It's almost imperceptible and I keep telling myself that she really needs a good sleep (they wake her every one to two hours to do neural checks). Today was more of the same (although Peter says he talked with her while I was talking to the nurse) and on top of that she has developed a fever. Just a small fever, a bit over 101, but a fever. They took the necessary specimens, gave her some tylenol, and started her on a broad-spectrum antibiotic. It will be 24 hours before preliminary results are in and another couple days before they have definitive results but they will be adjusting the antibiotic to get maximum results as results come in.
I can't write more now, perhaps I will get a good report from her parents after the 8:30 visit. Please continue to pray for Gretchen and please pray for me for strength and courage and that my faith will be as strong as Peter's appears to be.
I hope your perceptions are just that. Take encouragement that many are praying. Your mom wishes so much she could be there for you. She has expressed that on a few occasions. Still praying on.
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Thank you. As you can see from my next post it appears that my perceptions were being clouded by fear and lack of faith on my part. It looks like this will be a case of "that which does not kill us makes us stronger." I'm sure whoever first said that (I'm not going to spend precious time looking it up) wasn't referring to our Faith but it is equally applicable!
ReplyDeleteBrian- you said, "Probably not the best time to post"--but I am glad you have. As your brother in Christ, I have an obligation to pray for you. Because of your words, I know better how to pray for Gretchen and you.
ReplyDeleteThank you for the reminder that I need to be honest about how I am doing, and about my fears!
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